2 hours of sleep....

Mikey has decided that no matter where he is sleeping, the light has to be on.
If he's in our bed, the light has to be on, and because it's not he now refuses...

A few times, Adam and slept with mikey in mikeys' bed and so now this is the expectation from our boy and i am not at all willing to encourage this behaviour. i'm just not a cosleeping mother. i need my space and i hate being touched my feather soft fingers all night long. not to mention that he doesn't understand what is and isn't appropriate to touch on the female body. so i am very against cosleeping with our son... but because of this... it means i have to sit outside his bedroom until he is in such a deep sleep that i can walk away and leave. If he opens his eyes for a split second and realises i'm not there, oh my goodness does he scream and carry on.

I am exhausted beyond belief and i can't handle the SCREAMING and sonic levels of Crying and Whinging.
i know all kids whinge... until you hear this every morning? you cannot contemplate how frustrating it is... and goodluck trying to STOP the noise! because NOTHING works initially! and the more you try the worse it gets.... i have to walk away, pray that i go deaf for 2 minutes, and then try and bribe him out of the screaming.... but it doesn't always work and it just wears you further and further down as each screaming fit chips away more at your patience and tollerance levels.

My throat hurts from yelling at him to stop. i know this isn't the answer. i know this doesn't help... but when all else fails i find myself trying the ridiculously stupid and of COURSE it doesn't work :(

Anyway..... on a different note, i'm still waiting to hear of my dear friends little boys birth :( i hope and pray that she doesn't have to suffer the pain of labour too much longer. while i'm here frustrated and exhausted... it is nothing in comparison to the exhaustion, pain, frustration and misery that she is enduring with her partner.